Looking after Number One.

It started up again tonight. There’s only so long you can go for ignoring the fact that you are in pain.

Anxiety creeping, worthlessness, heck I even felt kind of depressed. So tonight, I’ve decided to shut the world out to cope. Disguise the hurt for one evening, have a night off. I ran a nice hot bubble bath, put some chilled and neutral music on, closed my tired eyes and escaped. Drifted in and out of effortless thoughts and slumber, letting my subconscious take over for a change. I feel better already.

Sometimes, you just need a break from fighting, you know?

Tomorrow will be a kinder day, and I will be that little bit stronger. I’m Fighting the pain for the better, letting go of all insecurities and embracing them, rather than degrading myself even more. Just keep going, one day at a time. I’ll get there eventually.

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